Math Beats Loyalty

No one thanked the ones who stayed.

History leaned on the totals
forgetting the people.

Numbers don’t remember
who stayed when it mattered.

Math beats loyalty
almost every time.

Almost.

©2026 Sam Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection by Sam Oldman, set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Gangsta Consequence

Now I see
how my freedom
was hijacked.

The humbling truth
drops me
on the far side
of the story—

equipped with an unbendable,
non-negotiable real.

Gangsta consequence
will eventually close
my chapter.

Pushing me to cross the line,
to think I’ll improvise
my way out later.

Letting me move,
lets me run,
lets me believe
I’m free—
until I bow.

Nothing personal.

Gangsta consequence knows:
you’ll walk straight into it
the moment you stop believing
you were special enough
to outrun the outcome.

©2026 Sam Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection by Sam Oldman, set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Life Waiting to Happen

The life that could have been
keeps rendering in the back of my mind—

too vivid,
too unresolved,
too human
to fit inside
what they call success.

I glimpse it briefly.

It’s alive,
stationed just outside
what I learned to call real.

The life that could have been
doesn’t hurt loudly.

It hovers nearby,
waiting for recognition
I can never give.

My body remembers
what this world never approved,
what this system never certified.

I mourn it quietly,
the version of myself,
the life that feels heavier
containing mistakes
that would have slowed things down.

Those turning points
didn’t look dramatic then.

I was rewarded
for those choices—
for those quiet wings of a butterfly
shaping the weather
for centuries to come.

I still am.

Rewarded.

©2026 Sam Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection by Sam Oldman, set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Each Day Removed Choice

I listened.

Why wouldn’t I?

Their arguments felt right.
Their hands seemed clean enough.

Over time
I noticed
how easily each day
removed choice.

How ordinary days
framed compliance.

How loyalty
became a standard requirement.

How pressure
was called deserved.

Reasoning warped
as my reality
felt staged—
like a world
rehearsing safety
while quietly erasing
both outliers
and heroes.

Even when it works,
even when everyone agrees,
even when nothing
appears broken,

an order
that punishes refusal
is still violence—

making safety a theatre.

The absence of boots,
the absence of flags
doesn’t make it right.

There are no good fascists.

©2026 Sam Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection by Sam Oldman, set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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I Was the Altar

I was the altar.

Steady,
available,
built to receive
what others needed to give up.

Expectations.
Fear.

I stayed still.
I took it.

Usefulness
is a pristine form of surrender,
so I was useful.

My breath shortened.
My core channeled their faith.

I adjusted their load.

I was being used
as sacred ground.

By sacred,
they meant load-bearing,
a dumping ground.

You see,
the herd travels lighter
when someone else
becomes the prayer mat—
a doormat
to wipe their hooves on.

Only later did I feel
how much muck
had passed through me—

and how much of it
never passed at all.

©2026 Sam Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection by Sam Oldman, set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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This poem is published in poetry collection Hollow Eye (2026).

Detouring Destiny

Tomorrow showed up too early,
shoved down my throat,
forced me to catch up.

Wearing my habits,
speaking in my voice,
using my reasons
against me.

Detouring so-called destiny
like a bullet train on tracks
labeled high-speed freedom.

In this tomorrow
my path is justified
by ever-deepening footprints
on an eternally looping trail
with no exits.

So tell me,
how does it feel so right
to be this wrong?

©2026 Sam Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection by Sam Oldman, set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Funny Thing To Say

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Stuck

Stuck in a tight spot,
I didn’t look for a raft.

I looked
for air.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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This poem is published in poetry collection Hollow Eye (2026).

Urgency as a Leash

What happens
when the world is allowed
to mean what it does?

Over time
the imbalance became obvious.

I spent a great chunk of my life
maintaining instability
for reasons that never resolved.

Who benefits
from never letting
things settle?

Who profits from
permanent urgency?

I believed them,
as did you.

We learned to stay reactive,
to accept clarity postponed
on purpose.

I’m done executing.

I refuse the protocol
of endless reaction.

I sense something slower.
Just honest enough
to let cause and effect
meet again.

Yet I hesitate.

Urgency is the oldest leash.

Chaos rooted me well.
Stillness feels exposed
and clarity reads as risk.

Stepping out of the churn
reveals how much of it
was never about our survival or success,
but about keeping us
too busy to notice

there was another realm
beyond the noise.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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This poem is published in poetry collection Hollow Eye (2026).

Belonging

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This poem is published in poetry collection Hollow Eye (2026).

My Song

I sing my song
in flattened the highs,
in lifted the lows,
sustaining the balance,
never out of tune.

Never do I sing my song alone.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Grace drops
like a feather
gaining mass midair.

What was a gift
becomes weight.

What was mercy
becomes metric,
calculated compassion
with a dashboard.

What once felt expensive
now comes with documentation,
managed like quantified grace.

I feel
so much
less so.

I feel the grace
free-falling in a universe
while learning how to bind
a blessing mid-flight.

Procedural mercy, audited.

Being filled with fallen grace
sounds like belonging,
while being told
I am still held.

Am I though?

Being held—
or just falling
unlicensed?

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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This poem is published in poetry collection Hollow Eye (2026).

Stay

This isn’t rest
but containment.

A final posture,
designed to prevent
anything unpredictable
from reentering
the frame.

Stay still.
Stay down.
Stay gone.

A maintenance manual
for facing a world
that survived
by convincing us
to disappear politely
once we stop fitting
the perfect shape
of coded completion.

This isn’t a request.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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This poem is published in poetry collection Hollow Eye (2026).

Exit to Express

I made it through.

Or did I?

I work.
I function.
I respond in time.

People read this as recovery,
mistaking competence
for healing.

My persistence
is a deserted island
with nowhere to land.

They don’t see
how much energy it takes
to stay alert
in completed world.

The truth is—
it isn’t over.

Surviving didn’t end.

It simply
lost its exit
to express itself.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Gift of Settling

It is handed to me gently,
no ribbon, no receipt,
no return policy mentioned.

Just a promise
that I can finally rest.

I hear wanting was the burden.
That desire made life unstable.

Reaching kept me dissatisfied,
making my mind noisy.

This will fix all that,
the generous gift
of yearning more
never more.

Promises of steady thoughts,
of mental silence,
of full body relief.

Removing my need
to measure myself
against what I could be.

To be gone those days
of leaning forward,
of fantasising about the future,
these days of lack and of lust.

It’s called a gift
to keep me from resisting,
from refusing to accept the fine box.

I don’t mean to be ungrateful,
but I kind of like my hunger.

I kinda like living my life
in the unknown space
between enough
and more.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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Gaslighting Reality

Reality gaslights.

It cuts, bends,
romanticizes the wound,
sharpens the scream
until it fits a frame,
a screen,
my feed.

I live in a lying painting.

Cheated by a poem.

I feel emotions
staged by lyrics
of a made-up song,
like a true crime scene
meant to be suffered,
not solved.

Who needs purity in reality,
when precision performs better?

Feed me the fake thing,
bold enough
to aim for the open wound,
find the most fragile nerve
and press.

This lie
is the kind
you don’t mind
wrestling with
until it hurts
exactly
as designed.

©2026 Samia Oldman

WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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What’s Up?

I’ve been deep in editing my upcoming book Rendering Humanity, and it’s been… a weird mix of feelings. With the first book, I had around 140 poems. I told myself this one would be shorter, tighter, easier to digest. Yeah. That didn’t happen. Sorry. It’s roughly the same length.

But it doesn’t feel the same, at all.

When I write, I usually have a loose arc, some prompts, a direction I’m trying to follow. I tend to work in bundles, which can make things feel a bit repetitive while I’m in it. Same tone, same space, same kind of thinking.

But now, going through everything in edit mode, I’m reading and listening to these pieces almost like they’re new. My scattered brain has forgotten most of it anyway, so I’m kind of rediscovering my own work. And I have to say, I’m getting genuinely excited about it again.

Rendering Humanity builds on Paradise Beyond Pulse, but it goes further. It’s darker in places, continuing the dystopian story arc. I’m digging way deeper, pushing my ideas a bit more.

So here’s something I’ve been thinking about. Are you allowed to be excited about your own work? Not in a fake hype way, but actually, honestly proud for a moment. Is it okay to say “this is damn good” without immediately pulling yourself down?

I’m asking this as someone with chronic imposter syndrome. When was the last time you felt openly excited about something you made?

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I’ll drop an unpublished sample from the upcoming book below. If you can, listen to the soundscape too, and let me know your thoughts. I’d really like to know how this one lands.

Riffle Daughter

I am the misborn,
the rifle-daughter
of optimization,
raised by systems,
not stories,
carrying a memory
of belonging
without inheriting its fire.

My drive,
rose from my upbringing,
valued alignment
over initiation.

I learned cooperation
over personal hunger.

I learned safety
over my personal limits.

A musket rests in my hand,
its weight constant,
made to reset the time.

Ancestral impulse
moves under my skin.

I press my forehead
against the mirage.

Pressure does not register.

Not all things
have inheritance.

Not all surfaces
have an interface.

I need a witness,
for sure,
that does not dissolve
into data.

I need a rifle-brother
that does not collapse
in beta.

I come
from a lineage
of efficiency.

No elders,
only protocols.

No myths,
only metrics
passed down as truth.

My fate is not my debate.

My pulse
feeling the danger,
the old trigger pattern,
ignored by a tribe
that forgot its ritual
the moment
optimization
proved
faster.

I lean into the hollow safety
of the rifle,
holding steady
between realms.

At the square one,
behind a row of doors,
I find myself foreign,
slowly forming the questions
my tribe left unformed.

For now,
my way remains closed,
yet exposed.

For now,
as a mistake,
as a misborn,
I align my shoulder
with a rifle stock,
prepared
for the system
backfire.

©Samia Oldman

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What Moves Me Now?

Nicole, who’s launching Dead Women’s Society, a project focused on women whose stories were minimized, misattributed, buried, or just erased. We need more people doing this kind of work.
Keep an eye on this space.

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WHAT IS HUSH HALO?
Hush Halo is a dystopian sci-fi poetry collection set in a near-future shaped by technology, silence, and optimized perfection. Each poem is paired with a unique soundscape created by poet, in Suno. Learn more in Square One.

Context: After the Great Optimization, a privileged group integrated into the system, believing they had now perfected themselves.

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All Is Well

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